18 week bumpdate

Hi guys! 

I have been enjoying a not so stressful week, but when you have one you must have the other!

Next week is midterm week {wooooo hooooo} which means two tests and a speech outling! but then a week off...

 I can't believe I'm at 18 weeks...5 months...HOLY CRAP!

I woke up yesterday and felt pregnant, I just felt so different.

my belly didn't look much different, but it felt different to me...

I kinda like it.

 

{this was my lazy and yet comfy run around with my mom outfit}

How far along? 

 18 weeks

{5 months today!}

How big is baby?  

sweet potato

Have you started to show yet? 

yes, someone in class the other day said "wow, momma looks pregnant today.

Maternity Clothes: 

 yes and no, Pants are a must...well I'm still squeezing into my skinny jeans but they came from the fat girl store and have a ton of stretch and my shirts are still all good but I tend to wear the few maternity shirts I have...gotta get all the use out of them I can! I'm also going to order some black leggings {capri} soon...I feel like I'm in desperate need of some.

Movement:  

still just flutters in the evening

Sleep: 

ok this week, but I don't feel as rested when I wake up anymore :(
Best moment this week:  

Mom and I went out to the mall today...we ooohed and aaaahhhed over tons of cute cloths!

Miss Anything? 

nothing this week!

Symptoms: 

 back pain that is getting ever increasingly worse, super dry skin, and super bad headaches...they just won't let up.

Cravings/Aversions: 

I'm craving salty and don't really want sweet...still don't want red meat, and most meat in general.

Weekly wisdom: 

make a list of what you want to do...because you will forget one of the places you NEED to go, and in turn will have to get up early and go the next day before work.

Looking forward to:  

ONE MORE WEEK TILL SPRING BREAK!!!

Our family has a Pi day {on St. Patties Day} to celebrate both pi day and the fact that we are Irish. I'm just looking forward to mass amounts of pie ;)

Next Appointment:

March 15th 

{our anatomy scan!}

just a bunch of stuff...updates and today's craziness!

  So as I stated in my last post...this last week has been suuuuupper crazy.

I still can't believe I managed to take almost a full week of decent outfit pictures! 

Then there was today...

that's not even all the kids...there were around 700!

I have to gloat, because we had the best room.

Music, Dancing and Arts & Crafts! at one point we had something like 7 people doing the cha-cha slide in the front of the room. Basically we were the bomb.

you also shouldn't give us a projector...

things like this happen

we get fishy beach pictures and us mid-westerners go a little crazy in the snow and cold.

who could blame us.

The best today was the cute little chick who decided she didn't care about making a logo, she instead drew a dino pic! 

I walked up and went "rawr means I love you in dinosaur"...she gave me the cutest smile.

and then I stole the picture when she left ;)

seriously! how cute is that thing!?!

Anyways on with the late weekly update.

How far along? 

 17 weeks 2 days

How big is baby?  

the bump says onion...I need to find a cuter object.

Have you started to show yet? 

yes, and a few kids asked me today if I was having a baby. It was cute.

Maternity Clothes: 

 yes and no, Pants are a must, but my shirts still fit.

Movement:  

still just flutters in the evening, they are so rare that I wonder if that's really what I'm feeling.

Sleep: 

I think Andy my have bruises from me punching him in the night due to the volume of his snoring...I'm such a light sleeper. So I haven't been sleeping that well.
Best moment this week:  

Last Saturday I was driving home from the store and {blaring} listening to some Mumford and Sons...peanut was either liking it or hating it {it better be the first...kid won't last long around me if it hates them!} I can also feel some movement when I'm sitting or resting on the couch in the evening...makes me think Peanut is playing bouncy castle in there :)

Miss Anything? 

The low stress of last semester...being pregnant doesn't help me when I'm trying to do a million things and desperately need to nap.

Symptoms: 

 back pain, super dry skin and lips, and super bad headaches...oh so bad.

Cravings/Aversions: 

I'm craving salty and don't really want sweet...still don't want red meat, and most meat in general.

Weekly wisdom: 

Cocoa Butter Lotion. Best stuff EVER.

Looking forward to:  

having almost nothing "exciting" happening this week! I can use the rest.

Next Appointment:

March 15th 

{our anatomy scan!}

Now how about some bump action!

What I put on the baby {bump}

Sunday:

{Sorry so blurry}

Jeans: Motherhood

Tshirt: Walmart

Sweater: Old Navy {something like 6 years ago}

 Sunday:

 

Jeans: Old Navy

Tshirt: Old Navy

Sweater: Kohls {3 years ago}

Monday:

 Jeans: Old Navy

Tshirt: hubbies {stolen ;) by me}

Tuesday:

 

Pants: Old Navy Yoga

Tshirt: Walmart

Hoodie: Gap {outlet}

Wednesday:

Dress up day {gave a speech}

All from Old Navy!

{Cords are maternity and super comfy}

 Thursday:

 Jeggings: Walmart

Top: some little kitchy shop?

Sweater: Target

I had a mentor lunch that day...I think I clean up nice!

So Friday I was running so late I forgot to take a pic but I did manage to look cute! and today we had to wear jeans and a tshirt provided {and ugly} so I saved you the photo ;0)

So there you get all the updates at once! and now I can go take a nap!

Oh this week...

Oh you guys...I don't think this week {or for that matter, this month} is ever going to end!
Today I gave a speech {to which I shook like a frightened small dog and ran out of saliva}, I talked so fast that I was short by almost a minute...still got a B though! Then I had to cram lunch in so I could cram some math into my brain...stupid quiz didn't even contain what I crammed beforehand AND we were allowed one sheet of paper to put what ever we desired on {I filled that mother} and only about 1/3 of the questions consisted of what I studied or put on my paper! Thank God we can drop one quiz grade!
That was just today...
My stupid butt vollenteered to teach kids to make logos this Saturday...there will be upwards of 500 kids ranging from age 2-15...I'm pretty sure I'm insane, but it's going to be fantastic on my résumé!

I've had so much I've wanted to post here lately, but I've been so busy I can't even think straight!
I need better time management skills...I must figure that out within the next 4 months

{and holy crap 4months!!!}

What I put on the baby {bump}

So this week started out rather good, I tried my best to keep it cute. Alas the fact that my ta-tas decided to go and get themselves "sick" over the weekend has taken my wardrobe to the comfy side. I feel all frumpy and saggy not wearing an underwire bra, but looking at these pictures I see it's not as bad as I think.

so please excuse my frumpy week, it has been crazy with school work and feeling like crap.

Week 15-16

Saturday:

Jeans: Old Navy {maternity}

Top: Andy's from college, I've claimed it for my own.

Sunday:

Jeans: Motherhood

Tank: Walmart

Tshitrt: Old Navy {maternity} 

Hoodie: Victoria Secret Pink {college line:Illini} 
{my other Illini friend was joking the other day that she has 3 loads when doing laundry...whites, darks, and oranges, I just looked at her and went "me too"}

Monday:

 Jeans: Motherhood

Tank: Old Navy

Tshirt: JCPenny

Tuesday:

Jeans: Old Navy {maternity}

Tank&Tshirt: Walmart

Hoodie: Gap {outlet} 

{this was Dr. visit day, I was feeling rather poopie hence the hair and lack of makeup.}
{yes I'm a nerd, yes that's a Doctor Who phone cover}

Wednesday:

Top: Old Navy {maternity}

Tank: Sam's Club

Pants: Old Navy yoga {my all time favorite pants}

{say Hi to Marley}

Thursday:

Happy Valentines Day!

Top: Victoria's Secret Pink

Tank: Sam's Club

PJ Pants: Bergners {gift from my amazing school friends}

It was cleaning day, which means no leaving the house!
{so because Andy is indecisive, he called at 4:40 and said "lets go out to eat",  I ended up putting on Jeans and we ended up at Noodles...So romantic!} 


Friday:

 

 Tshirt: Walmart
Jeans: Motherhood
{I have a ton of black shirts}
{also... wow hair! Can it get any bigger?}


I think Saturday was it for the cute factor, after that I just kinda went blah.
Hope you guys had a good week! mine was crazy...it still is. I'm off to take not one but two take home tests! wish me luck!

16 Week Bumpdate

Hi all!

 I can't believe I'm at 16 weeks. It just seems like a huge place to be, I have no idea why, it just does.

It's cleaning day! which means PJ's, fuzzy slippers, and the headband/messy pony combo!

at least I made it all pink and check out the puppies and hearts on my pants! so so sooooo comfy!

How far along? 

 16 weeks

How big is baby?  

Avacado

Have you started to show yet? 

yes, there is no sucking it in now! This was the first week I actually feel that I look pregnant.

Maternity Clothes: 

 yes and no, Pants are a must, but my shirts still fit.

Movement:  

still just flutters in the evening, they are so rare that I wonder if that's really what I'm feeling.

Sleep: 

If I don't have to get up to pee than I'm somewhat ok, if I've had a long day than my back tends to keep me up thanks to lower back pain.
Best moment this week:  

Loving my new OB, meeting with her was so nice and reassuring.

Miss Anything? 

Normal boobs...this week I've learned a whole new term to boob pain.

Symptoms: 

 back pain, headaches, super dry skin and lips, heartburn {not too bad yet just in the evening}

Cravings/Aversions: 

starting to get my taste back for meat! slowly but it's getting there.

Weekly wisdom: 

If something seems wrong, don't hesitate to seek advice from all that will give it. And call your doctor...you are not crazy.

Looking forward to:  

painting the baby's room soon and booking the anatomy scan.

Next Appointment:

Tuesday

crappy last few days

So it's been a crappy last few days. I've been "under the weather"
I woke up Sunday with a pain in the boobs and lovely red patches. By the end of the day the left has spread and the pain had gotten worse.
I sent out a call to my cousin...who is now my faerie godmother!
tylenol and echinacea tea for the last two days has kept it from spreading, but I feared it was an infection or something so I gave my new OB a call and got in this morning. 
Turns out I have something called Raynaud's phenomenon. The phenomenon is believed to be the result of vasospasms that decrease blood supply to the respective regions. Stress and cold are classic triggers of the phenomenon. It normally happens in fingers, noses or ears...but it's my luck that I get it in the tots!

On another, yet related note, I LOVE my new OB! She is the sweetest thing and everyone in her office is so nice. I'm so happy I switched. I can't imagine anyone else helping me birth this baby.
I go back to see her again for a "real" appointment in another week, that's when we will schedule the next ultrasound. She said It would be scheduled between week 18 and 20...I'm going for the sooner the better!
I am also too far along to re take the chromosomal tests...which is going to make Andy so soooo happy. {please read that in a sarcastic tone}

Ok I'm off to do way too much class work...oh my pregnant brain, sometimes I don't know how I keep going.

What I put on the baby {bump}

So I have decided that I will start being a cute pregnant chick...fat be damned! and if I commit myself to posting a weekly fashion post then maybe I'll stay a cute pregnant chick!

So it shall be called "What I put on the baby {bump}". 

I will go Saturday to Friday and post every Friday!

Sound cool? Sweet!

Week 14-15 

Saturday: 

Shirt: Old Navy 

Tank: Walmart

Jeans: Lane Bryant {non-maternity}

 Belt: from an old sweatshirt

Boots: Avenue {online plus size shop}

Sunday: 

No picture, because I didn't want to frighten you with my pj's and no bra.

you're welcome ;)

Monday:

 

 Shirt & Tank: Old Navy{non-maternity}

Jeans: Motherhood

"Sweater": Target

Shoes: Rocket Dog {you can't see them but they are cute!}  

 

 Tuesday:

Sweater: Walmart! {I freekin love it, and super cheap!}

Tank: Old Navy

Tunic: Forever 21 {forever ago}

Jeggings: Walmart 

Boots: Avenue

{none of this is maternity}

 Wednesday:

 

Sweater: had it for ages, can't remember where it came from

Tank: Old Navy {3yrsago, wore it to get ready for our wedding!}

Jeans: Old Navy {maternity}

Shoes: Blowfish {so so sooo comfy}

 Thursday:

 Purple Tank: Sam's Club

White Tank: H&M

Cardi: Gap {3 years or so ago}

Jeans: Lane Bryant

Hair Clip: made by me!

{wish you could see my hair, somehow I got it to look super cute super early in the am! it's a messyish bun}

   
Friday: 

"Sweater": Target
Tunic: Motherhood {such an awesome top, totally worth the $30}
Yoga pants: Old Navy {non maternity}


and I swear to you all I promise I will clean my mirror this weekend.  

 This morning I was in a major rush, and we found out that a friend's brother passed away, the visitation is tonight and I had to find something comfy but dressy to sit in for 6hrs of work {in a verrrrry uncomfortable chair} and then go to a visitation in.

15 week bumpdate

So this week has been kinda bumpy {not of the baby variety} I have been stressed about school and now I'm dealing with finding a new OBGYN.  Good news I think I found one I want to go to. I'm going to call in a few and chat with the office.

So before I jump onto the homework {that I really should be working on now} Let's get on with the questions! {I'm mixing a few questionnaires I found}

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How far along? 

 15weeks

How big is baby?  

naval orange

Have you started to show yet? 

yes, the fat pudge is definitely now 1/2 baby and larger than the regular pudge.

Maternity Clothes: 

 yes and no, if my pants are stretchy than I'm good with regular{I have one few pairs of jeggings/leggings that I can still wear} I'm still in regular shirts.

Movement:  

I get flutters when I lay down at night, and last night I could have sworn that I felt a bit more than flutters.
Sleep: 

I toss and turn a bunch, and I think that may be because of gas bubbles "stuck" under my ribs. I seem to be most comfortable on my back...hope that doesn't last, because it causes me to wake up with a killer backache. 
Best moment this week:  

quitting the Metformin, I know what you are thinking...but seriously, that crap sucks!

Miss Anything? 

no, I'm all good this week.

Symptoms: back pain, headaches, super dry skin and lips, heartburn {not too bad yet}

Cravings/Aversions: 

I had to have fruit roll ups the other day...I've had a whole box since then. I still don't want to have anything to do with meat. 

Weekly wisdom: 

If you are not happy with your Dr. make the switch, your happiness is linked to your health and your babies health. DO WHAT IS BEST FOR YOU!

Looking forward to:  

seeing a new Dr. and hopefully finding out the sex of the baby soon!

Next Appointment:

? 

Doc visit and frustrations

I had my 14 week check up today, all is good...well almost good.
I'm fine, baby is fine, heart rate is 160(...which according to dr. google means girl! I'll take it!)
But they didn't have enough baby juice in my blood to test for Downs Syndrome so they want to do the test again.
Now I'm kinda pissed they didn't tell me this last week, because they told me that the test would take 8-10 business days and well this is a week later than that! I don't think we will do it again, it's kinda expensive and I could care less about the results...I'm having this baby no matter what!!!
Another thing that irked me today is that they don't do another ultrasound until 20 weeks...no budging...I tried. She said no way.
I think I may check into this place in town that does ultrasounds for the fun of it.
I really don't want to wait that long to find out what this baby is!

Also it happens to be World Nutella Day!

so grab a jar and a spoon...or whatever you wish to cram that freekin delicious goop into your pie hole with!....or just put it on or in the pie...and bring it to me...I mean the baby, yeah the baby wants Nutella...

The struggle

Many of you may wonder where I have been.
Well since Dec '11 I have been hiding on an autonomous blog. It's not that I didn't want people to know who I was, it was that since we have been married we have been in a struggle. One that, at almost all times, you need to cry, scream and rant...and it's easier sometimes to do that and get your feelings out when no one really knows you.
You see we have tried to have a baby since the moment we were married.
It just wasn't in the cards to happen that way.
We struggled for the first year, just trying the natural way.
We struggled the second year with medication, which did nothing but give me huge headaches, I charted and read books...and cried so hard at the beginning of every "month".
And when all of that still failed we were handed off to a specialist.
More tests were ordered, more meds were given. Still no baby. We moved on to assisted fertilization (IUI).
When that failed we moved on to the next (IVF), the first try failed and I was devistated.
But thank God the second round worked and we are now happily expecting.

No one will quite understand the massive struggle that infertility can be. It makes you question every bit of yourself. It makes you feel like so much less of a person. And when you finally get to become pregnant, it makes it hard to believe that this is really happening to you.
I have seen this baby on a screen...wiggle and squirm all over the place...but I still have doubts that this is actually happening to me. I really don't think that I will believe it until I can feel this baby move inside me.

Infertility sucks, and I don't wish it on even my worst enemy.